SURRENDERING TO PAIN

by: Author Unknown,

I laughed 'til I cried cried, cried with no one to hold me and calm me

My anger burned a hole in my soul

My sadness the sound of my tears

My sobs rendered me helpless as

I burrowed down to that deep place inside of me where raw emotions hide

I cried for the hurt, the pain and the fear and a childhood lost

I cried for dignity undone and innocence long forgotten

I cried for the questioning silences and the doubt filled eyes

I cried because I felt so forsaken the loneliness nesting deep in my heart

I cried so loud yet I was not heard

The kind of crying that makes others uncomfortable because the pain is all too obvious yet crying seemed a woefully inadequate way to voice such powerful emotions

With only bloodshot eyes and a tear stained face to show that moments before my body racked with tremors I faced the world again