SURRENDERING TO PAIN

by: Author Unknown,

I laughed 'til I cried

cried, cried

with no one to hold me

and calm me

My anger burned

a hole in my soul

My sadness

the sound of my tears

My sobs rendered me helpless

as I burrowed down to that

deep place inside of me

where raw emotions hide

I cried for the hurt,

the pain and the fear

and a childhood lost

I cried for dignity undone

and innocence long forgotten

I cried for the questioning silences

and the doubt filled eyes

I cried because I felt so forsaken

the loneliness nesting

deep in my heart

I cried so loud yet

I was not heard

The kind of crying

that makes others uncomfortable

because the pain is

all too obvious

yet crying seemed awoefully inadequate

way to voice such

powerful emotions

With only bloodshot eyes

and a tear stained face

to show that moments

before my body racked

with tremors

I faced the world again